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My Thoughts

Mama Dottie

I wrote this six years ago and decided to clean it up and share.

This is something close and dear to my hart. I hope you can understand where I am coming from and how I am feeling.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 For those of y’all who don’t know my adoptive mom passed away on Oct 7th 2015  

 

 

 On the wings of a dove;

 

 

 My heart aches today for someone who I called mom who was taken to heaven on this date six years ago.

 

  Dottie Fraker was a very special person to me and she helped me in so many ways. She use to  tell me I  didn’t give birth to you but we do have a mother/ daughter bond.

 

 

 I just can’t find the words

 to explain  how  I’m feeling.

 

 

 I just listened to her favorite song and the tears just won’t stop flowing.

 

 I know I will see her again. She touched so many people lives. While she was on this  earth. She is truly what you would call a proverbs 31 woman.

 

 Whenever you were at her house you always felt at home. I don’t think she ever met a stranger in her life. She left foot prints on peoples hearts  when she came into their lives.

 

 I miss you so much Mama Dottie. I love you and you will never be forgotten.

 

I still have to stop myself from calling your old number to just talk or ask for a recipe.

 

I know I will see you again someday. I will close my blind eyes on this side of heaven  and wake in heaven and the first face I will see is Jesus.

 

So we have to say good bye for just a little while but we will see each other again.

 

 

Her favorite song was called , On The Wings Of A Dove.

 

I have played this song quite a bit, but it helps me a lot.

 

 

 

 

 

 On the wings of a snow white dove  he sends his pure sweet love. A sign from above on the wings of a dove.

 

 

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I appreciate it more than you know.

 

 

 

 

Until next time KTF Keep The Faith

Remember as much as I love you, Jesus loves you even more!

Autumn

Well Autumn  is here again and do y’all  know what that  means. Apple picking,  hay rides and hot apple cider and hot chocolate and nice days and the cool nights. There is a lot more i could write about but i’d run out of room. Oh yes let’s not forget football.

Also thinking about Autumn that is a new season and new things come about in a new season.

 

Right now my life is so different than last year at this time. I think about what was going on in my life and I cannot help but give God the glory.

I know he favors me. I am his and he is mines.

I know I have been talked about and lied on but my God knows me and he favors me.

 

I listen to a song every morning and it reminds me that I am not walking this journey alone and even though I feel like it at times he carries me  through. The title of the song is God favored me, by  Hezekiah Walker. That song gets my day started.  

 

In spite of everything I am blessed and his grace is sufficient for me. Like the season is new the day is new and even though I mess up on a daily basis  my God has me in his arms.

 

I just started a new job and it is right now overwhelming but I can do all things through Christ that strengthen me.  

Yesterday was very hard on my brain and I know the only way I got through it all was Christ. I did my six classes in three hours. Usually people do them over a week, but with Gods’ help I finished.

Faith as small as a mustard seed will move a mountain. This is my walk from now on. I have been looking at the broad picture and I just have to look on the small things.

 

Starting with me believing that the Lord has me and he will never leave me,  like man will  down here on this earth. When God says forever he means forever.

 

Friends may come and go from your life God stays with you until the end.

 

Just a few thoughts that are going through my mind. So thank you for reading my blog.

Until next time, KTF Keep The Faith. Remember as much as I love you, Jesus loves you even more!

Mustard seed faith

Thank you Lord for  taking care of me.

 

This journey started back in 2011. I was working a job that I couldn’t advance on  at all. My supervisor at the time wasn’t a very pleasant person to work for.

 

I went to the conference room for my yearly evaluation to receive my yearly raise.

Needless to say that meeting didn’t go as I expected it to go.

I was told that my attitude was bad and I would never make it on another job. Also was not given my full raise. I was disappointed when I left the conference room.

I felt like I was just kicked in the stomach and almost cried.

I couldn’t talk to my husband at the time about what was going on.

So I lasted only two more years on that job.

Work was slow and they lost some contracts. So  I was laidoff along with 27 other people. I was told it was temporarily. I was called back a couple of months later and worked for just one week and was just let go again. I didn’t know what to think about what just happened.

I have tried and tried to get back to work.

Everytime this particular company needed some people to work I called the temp service that we were told to call and get set up with. When all is said and done I was told that you are on the do not call back list. I don’t understand why this happened. I always did what I was told.

I just wasn’t going to let the supervisor and HR people talk to me any kind of way.

I felt harassed on the job and I really couldn’t report it, because I felt like everyone was against me.

I do admitt that sometimes I let my mouth get the best of me. Well when you’re getting picked at on a daily basis and your support isn’t there  then you defend yourself.

I had people watching me all the time and there were some lies told on me. I was written up for some things I didn’t do. I did not sign the write-up. I wasn’t going to take the blame for something I didn’t do. I stood my ground and lost a job because of standing up for myself.

This blog isn’t a pitty party for myself. I’m informing everyone that the Lord had different plans for my life.

He didn’t want me stuck on a job that I wasn’t about to be able to advance at and people mistreat me.

I have been trying to get some employment for the last eight years. I have been to the point where I felt like I would never work again.

My old supervisor’s words rolling around in my head and making me feel very low.

 

My confidence is a lot better now. I have the best support ever. I have the Lord on my side. When the Lord is on your side, you are on the winning side.I know I can do all things through Christ.

 

 

Philippians 4-13 says,

 

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

 

I have some news. I went to an interview a few weeks ago and with the help of my Lord and some people speaking on my behalf I received a job. So to God be the glory.

 

Faith as small as a mustard seed can move a mountain. I trusted God and he took care of me.

 

Thank you for reading my blog. Until next timeKTF: Keep The Faith, as much as I love you, Jesus loves you even more.

Life and death all in one day. please pray for my family

Hello darkness my old enemy.  You thought you had my family once again. Jesus Christ has the light that shines within. Christ has us from the beginning until the end.

 

Isaiah 41-10

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

 

Deuteronomy 31-6

Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

 

Although we have been visited by death our Lord will get us through this difficult time. We have each other and trust God he has  his loving arms around us.

 

This broke my heart to hear of my young cousins’ death.

During this time of mourning God has already showed grace.

My Aunt Edna and my cousin Monica has suffered a great loss. My aunt Edna has lost a grand son and gained a great grand daughter on one of the darkest days of her life.  

In spite of the storm we are going through right now there is a ray of sunshine.

 

I would like to take this time and let my family know I love y’all unconditionally. Also we need to stick together like gorilla glue.

Also a family that prays together, stays together.   

 

As much as I love you, Jesus loves you even more!

Christ is all you need 🙏🙏

Have you ever heard anyone say there is no God? I’ve heard that very thing quite a bit in my lifetime.   

 

I am here to tell you God exists. He is everywhere you look.

Wait a minute you are blind how can you look  around? Yes I have been asked those types of questions. I am physically blind but not spiritually blind.

I see God’s work everyday.

 The reason I say God exist is because everything I have asked for he has provided in some way, shape or form. I am going to my brother’s place for Independence Day and I am traveling on public transportation. I needed bus fare.  I was going to see if I could get  the correct fare at church.

I soon realized I had given my daughter the last 5 I had in my wallet. So no cash and that means no bus fare.

This is what I did. I just said, “God I need some bus fare please.” I gave it to God and went about my business.

 

I didn’t even think about it until I was on my way home from church tonight June 30.  

 

Brother Paul Pendl preached tonight because pastor is on vacation.  So brother Paul asked a question before starting his message tonight. He also had a liberty bell bank full of quarters. He was going to give it away to the first  person who answered his question correctly.

 

Yes, I am going to tell you the question.

 

Who is Hadassah?

I sat there for a bit to let the other people try to answer. No one knew who  Hadassah was in the bible. Hadassah was Esther.  

I finally answered the question and received the liberty bell bank.

 

So god provided again like he always does. I have been saying for the last few years that God’s timing is the best timing. He always comes right on time. I stepped out on faith and it paid off.

 

I have had to learn to just give it to God and not try to fix it myself.  

God used Paul Pendl to give me some   bus fare. So to God be the glory. Matthew 6-33  

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added  on to you. Matthew 7-7    

 

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

8 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

 

So what it all boils down to is this, trust God even in the hardest times and in the best times. This may seem like something small, but it is a blessing to me. God took care of my needs. So now I don’t have to figure out how am I going to get to the ATM and then get the correct fare for the bus. My God always takes very good care of me.   

 

Also if you don’t know  Christ, you can get to know him today. All you have to do is pray this prayer and believe in your heart, and then you can know Christ today.

 

 

 

Dear Jesus, I know I’m a sinner and would be lost in hell without You. Please forgive me for my sins and come into my life. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and that God, Your Father, raised You from the dead. Thank You, Jesus, for giving me Your free gift of eternal life. Amen.

 

 

If you prayed that prayer and meant it in your heart you are now a child of the king. You also can lean on him for everything.  

 

Thank you for reading my blog, until next time as much as I love you Jesus loves you even more!!!

KTF Keep The Faith ☺️

Think before you speak part 2 🤔

I thought long and hard before writing this post. This happened to me about 2 years  ago.

I will apologize before submitting this blog because I know people will read it and know about what I am talking about.

 

I had worked hard on making a couple of pumpkin pies. One for home and one for the Missions banquet. With the help of my daughter Jenn she helped me with the pie crust. No matter how hard I try I still have a hard time with getting the edges just right. So I always ask for assistance when baking  a pie.

 

So I felt very confident about my pie. So I took it to the Missions banquet.

I also was a little nervous about people eating my food. I really don’t want to bash sighted people, but some of them are very skittish about eating my food. So sometimes I just don’t make anything at all.  I have actually made things in the past and have brought the whole dish back home because people found out someone who is  blind made the food and no one ate.

So now you know why I pull back and just don’t do anything. All my hard work  to prove myself that I am a good cook went to waste.

 

Well this time my hard work paid off. I had been nervous that week and I asked the Lord for help. It may seem like a small task to you all but it was a big deal to me. I always ask the Lord for his help I am by myself a lot of the time.

 

 

 

So now back to my pie, I was just sitting and thinking out loud like I have a tendency to do at times. Not realizing that someone was listening to me. This is the hardest part of being blind you never know who is around you when you do things like think out loud.

 

I was amazed that my pie had only one piece left. The other individual person who had made a pecan pie had 3 pieces left.  I was just thinking wow I have one piece of pie and the other person has 3 pieces left. I was smiling and before I could say to God be the glory, someone said to me “Your not getting it we are going to see if so and so wants it.” I didn’t want pecan pie in the first place. I was taken a back by that person’s words.

I was very disappointed in that treatment. I also bit my tongue so hard that tears filled my eyes and had to make myself not cry.

proverbs 13-3 He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction.

 

 

 

I have been taught in my life you have to pick your  battles and that is exactly what I did that night. Even though it would have been so easy to lose my temper and starting a cursing and shouting match. I chose to be silent. Proverbs 15-1-2

 

A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.

2 The tongue of the wise useth knowledge aright: but the mouth of fools poureth out foolishness.

 

Also I realized it wouldn’t have been right to do this at church. I still see the person every Sunday and I am cordial towards the particular person and I have to look at it in this way too. I’m old enough to be the parent and if they can disrespect me in that way then they will do it to others.

I’m not telling  you all to do what I did but if it happens to you please think before you speak.   I was always told if  you can’t  say anything nice then don’t say anything at all.

 

So what I did was just let it roll off my back. Hurtful words can sting no matter what age you are.

 

So my advice to you is to choose your words wisely and think before you speak.

 

You may never know what a person is going through. They could be smiling on the outside and broken on the inside and your actions could very well push them over the  edge.

 

Please take the time to get to know someone and just because they may have a handicap you may very well learn a lot from those individuals.

 

I may have been born with a handicap and may look different to others. In God’s eyes I am perfectly made. Simply because I am his and he is mine.  All the scars from the eye surgeries may be there but God doesn’t see it at all. He sees me and the way he made me.

 

If you want to know the Lord in this way all you need is to ask him into your heart.

 

 

       Dear Jesus, I know I’m a sinner and would be lost in hell without You. Please forgive me for my sins and come into my life. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and that God, Your Father, raised You from the dead. Thank You, Jesus, for giving me Your free gift of eternal life. Amen.

If you prayed this prayer and meant it in your heart, you now belong to Jesus and jesus belongs to you.

So to sum this blog up, think before you speak because words can hurt and once they are out you cannot take them back.

Thank you for reading my blog. 🙂

 

Remember as much as I love you Jesus loves you even more.

 

Until next time, KTF Keep The Faith!!!

Think before you speak 🙏🙏

Some people have a tendency to constantly do and say wrongful things to other people bluntly and proudly without remorse. But the sad part is that once you bring it to their attention, they don’t know what you are talking about or you are crazy and delusional. Flip the script and they still don’t get it. The person doing wrong never never sees the disrespect but it doesn’t mean that their disrespect should be taken lightly.

 

Have you ever been around someone who talks down to you all the time? The reason I ask this question because I have experienced this in my life in one shape or form.

Growing up with a visual impairment I endured a lot of bullying and just a lot of things a person shouldn’t have to put up  with in a lifetime.

 

Here is a little  background on my post today.

 

First of all I grew up in not the best neighborhood. So a lot of the time when I was outside either going to school or just playing with my brothers and sisters I had issues come about on a daily basis. Children can be so cruel and some adults can be as well.

So I was born with Congenital Glaucoma and  Cataracts. So thefore I didn’t have the greatest vision. I did fine with what I had for the first 12 years of my life. I had to wear these thick glasses and I didn’t like them but they did help for a while.

This is where the teasing and bullying comes in. I was called everything from 4 eyes and cockeyed. Also kids  always came up to me and asked how many fingers am I holding up. It got so bad that I didn’t want  to be around anyone.

You may say that all of those things happened when you were a child and it is high time you get over that stuff.

 

This is where you are wrong. When you have been traumatized before you become a teenager it can follow you for the rest of your life. It will bother you if you don’t get the propper help.

So now you see I had a lot going on before the age of 13 and it plays a big role in my life today. So if you grow up with being bullied because of a handicap that you were born with it is a hard thing to deal with. You are not alone. Being  picked on like that will make you retreat and tend to be by yourself.

So now that I am an  adult I tend to stay away from people who hurt me. I usually hide in books or behind my music. Dealing with blindness it is hard  enough in this world alone. I dealt with it as best as I knew how. When I was a kid  music and books were my refuge. Until something better came along and help me deal a lot better in my life.

 

I am not saying I don’t get depressed in my life anymore, but when I do I      someone with me who will never leave me. Yes i’m telling you that is Jesus. He sticks by my side closer than a brother. He loved me so much that he gave his life for me. Now that is a love that you cannot find in anyone down here on this earth. So if you don’t have the love of Christ in your heart. You can receive it right now. All you have to do is pray this simple prayer and mean it. You will never be alone.  

 

Dear Jesus, I know I’m a sinner and would be lost in hell without You. Please forgive me for my sins and come into my life. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and that God, Your Father, raised You from the dead. Thank You, Jesus, for giving me Your free gift of eternal life. Amen.

Now that you prayed that prayer and meant it you have just received Christ and you will never be alone. Even when you feel like giving up he will carry you through the hardest times of your life.

 

So now when you see someone who is being picked on or just being treated horribly because of having a handicap you can give them some kind words or encouragement because that will go further than you know.  

Proverbs 16-24

Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones.

 

So please think before you speak. Kind words can go very far.

 

 Until next time, As much as I love you Jesus loves you even more.

KTF Keep The Faith

Life Is Easy When You’re Up On A Mountain

It is in the hardest times when we tend to pray. It is in the darkest times when we hope God shows up. It is in the hopeless times when we realize just how precious life is. My question is (mostly for myself) why must we wait for those times to have faith? Wait for those times to pray and search for a miracle. Every breath we take is a miracle!..everyday we have reasons to pray! God is always there, yet we tend to look for him when we are hurting  or when we need help. I’m  learning to celebrate God’s work everyday and thank Him in spite of everything that is going on in our  lives.

 

I have a question. Wouldn’t it be easier to pray to God on a daily basis?

Praying and praising God in your good times and in the bad times. You know if you are a child of the king he is with you always!

 

I know I am guilty of this, when things are going well for me  there are times when I let days go by without reading my bible or praying. It seems like when I down in a valley that is when I reach out to God. That isn’t a good relationship.

Things go so much better when I  start my day in prayer and reading the Word Of God. My days are so much better.

What I am saying here never let your life get so busy that you don’t have anytime for God. If you are a child of the king he is with you always!

How would you like it if someone whom you hang out with suddenly just stop talking to you? How would that make you feel?

I know for myself I would be  wondering about what did I do to deserve the silent treatment.

Also how would you feel if someone only talks  to you when they wanted something?

I know for myself I would be thinking this person  only talks to me when they want something. Also that would make me feel like they are using me and will go away after they are finished getting what they need from  me. I don’t know about y’all but that would make me feel pretty rotten.

In the book of James it speaks of fervent prayer availeth much.

That passage basically put into easier  terms that all could understand is be sincere when you pray.

James 5-16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

  So what I am saying is please go to the Lord for everything. Please don’t run to him when you are down and out. Talk to him everyday, you will find it is so much easier to open up and talk with him.

You will  develop a great relationship.

I know you don’t want a relationship with someone who only talks with you when they only want  something from you. God feels the same way. When you are his then you should have fellowship with him on a daily basis. Life will be so much better when you are in a great fellowship with the Lord.  

 

Also if you aren’t a child of the King you can become a child of the king.

 Confess your sins and ask Christ into your heart.

Here is a prayer that you can pray.  

 

Dear Jesus, I know I’m a sinner and would be lost in hell without You. Please forgive me for my sins and come into my life. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and that God, Your Father, raised You from the dead. Thank You, Jesus, for giving me Your free gift of eternal life. Amen.

If you prayed this prayer and meant it in your heart, you have just become a child of the king.

So here is where the rubber meets the road, now you can have someone to lean on in all your times.

 

Good or bad the Lord is with you always!

 

 

Until next time Keep The Faith!!!

As much as I love you, Jesus loves you even more.