Grief

My life in the last five months

I started college in August. Things were kind of crazy, but we got it together. I had a couple of classes that I didn’t have books for. I was to get through by studying my notes. Things seem to be working just fine. It is Oct and I was out with a friend when I received some bad news. My father died from a sudden massive heart attack. It was right in the middle of midterms. I did quite well on those midterms. Considering I could not concentrate on my class work. Well I found some middle ground and was doing well in my classes. I was looking forward to Thanksgiving. We had a great Thanksgiving withthe family. My daughters were not at my sister’s for the holiday because they had Covid. Everything went down hill the very next day. I will never forget this as long as I live. My youngest daughter found her father deceased on Friday after Thanksgiving. It started out like a normal morning. I was talking to my daughters and we were doing a little Christmas shopping. My youngest daughter was going to call me back because she was going to look online for me to find something for my son-in-law. My daughter did call me back, but it wasn’t about Christmas gifts. I answered and realized something was wrong. My daughter said mom dad is dead. I was not ready to hear something like that. I jumped in an Uber and got to my kids as fast I could.

Christmas wasn’t the same this year. Even though we were divorced I still saw my daughters father on holidays. So since I had a few weeks off from school I have been reflecting on our life and grieving. I have my good days and bad days. Grief will catch you when you are not expecting it. I am doing ok and looking forward to the next semester. With everything going on in my life I did make the dean`s-list. That is all for now! Take care and I will be back in a while.