Birthday Month
As I sit here on this cold afternoon I am just thinking about my birthday. I will be 48 in exactly 2 weeks. It will be celebrated so much different from last year. I was with my family and we were celebrating two occasions my birthday and my nephew leaving to go to the Army. I was going to miss that young man. I helped raise him and my daughter Stormy is his best friend and cousin. They always played video games together. I always had to get on them for rough housing. This birthday will be spent at home. I am hoping to see my girls. I call one of my daughters Pooh Bear and my other daughter is Stormy.
I already know I will be receiving gifts from friends who i’ve known for 20 years or more.
My friend Sandy told me to be thinking about the place where I would like to go eat whenn it warms up. So I normally like to say I celebrate my birthday for the whole month, but this year I will settle for the one day I was born. It really don’t feel right for some reason. I know things will get better.
Atleast I have my books to escape into when I am here all alone. I have read 4 books in the last week. So I am doing the same thing I did when I lost my sight.
I thank God I learned braille in 1982 when I was 9 years old. When I woke up on that morning back in 1986 and I actually thought it was still night time.
My sister kept saying get up for school and I said it is dark. It isn’t time to get up yet. The last thing I remember seeing is the hall light. My mom always left the hall light on just incase my younger brothers or sisters got up in the night. That hall light was my guide as well. That is how I was able to find my way out of my room to the bathroom.
It is coming up on 35 years of me being blind, later in the Spring.
Being blind can be a lonely road to walk. I am trusting Jesus everyday to get me through. I have been through a lot in my 48 years on this earth and Jesus has been with me through out it all. Even when I could not feel his presents he was always with me.
If you ever read that old poem Foot Prints In The Sand, you will know what I mean. You see two sets of foot prints in the sand and sometimes you see one set. The two sets mean the Lord is walking right beside you. The single set of foot prints is the Lord is carrying you through when you just can’t do it anymore.
I am at a point in my life again where I am doing things and I am finding that if I write or read books or listen to music I can get through the day. Sometimes being blind makes me sad, but I know Jesus will get me through all of my stormy seas. I have to lean on these verses everyday. Proverbs 3:5:6
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
Those verses are the verse I think of all day. They help me so much.
Trust the Lord he will never fail you or forsake you.
So all in all I get sad and lonely sometimes and I just need a reminder.
I know it is normal to feel that way. So if you feel this way. Pray and just trust God. Sometimes a friend will encourage you and they will not even have a clue that they helped.
I shall write again soon. Take care and always Keep The Faith.
I love you but Jesus loves you even more. Until next time! KTF
KEEP THE FAITH 